"It is easy to mend the broken but when something shatters, its impossible to bring it back" & I took exactly twenty-five years, to realize this, from the day I was born.
Life is anything but a fairy tale & if you want to live in a fairy tale you have to look like a fairy & at least in this world that I live in, looks do matter more than the heart.Sometimes it doesn't matter how deep you could be hurt or how far it can disappoint you & at times it also seems like love, desire, affection, hope are just anornamental words which can be used to dazzle your prose & poetry but they rarely seem to exist in the real world.
Sometimes living in a world like this seems worthless but what still makes me live is when I look around & I find small instances of happiness like a small bush that blossoms on the road side, which faces the rude weather, & the people's stampede, still this small plant never seizes to grow and spread its beauty & it makes me smile. Whenever I see a little kid running across the road worrying about the load of his school bag on his back & still playing around with kids, I feel like innocencestill exists in this world. It reminds me of my childhood, when we never categorized people by their money or religion & played all day on the streets. I miss those days where we rode bicycles to far-off mango-farms just to steal mangoes from the trees & no matter how sour they were, they tasted divine. Times have changed and so have people, & I'm caged in a concrete box with a fake smile and sparkling clothes but no fun.
Sometime I doubt about myself being a queer. Just like other I too love parties ,dancing and clubbing but pub is not a place for me to randomly kiss good looking guys or to find a date for a hook-up. What actually makes my day is observing couples smitten by love, sitting in one corner of the pub, enjoying their drinks together with whispering to each-other,laughing & hugging. It seems like they are lost in their own world & care a damn about this world. Its then that I realized that happiness does not only comes when you have got something that you have desired but also when you have experienced that what you have desired & achieved is not hypothetical to what you have and wished for, in this world.
