I heard about a disease claustrophobia. This is a kind of disease where person feels uncomfortable when he is in enclosed area. It does not matter how much personal space he is getting , he just feels he is going to faint or die. I never believed such kind of thing can happen to a person, this just theory there is no truth in it.
But since last 7 months I realized this is true. Yes there is stage where you may be getting all the things in your life still you feel that is not right. The place, persons around you, what you are doing nothing is right. You feel like running out of air and want to run away from there to a place where every thing is greener and where greenery stays. You want to gasp as much air as you can. You can have your life back with him. When you realize that be sure that you are in love. With out him you will feel everything enclosed and colorless. Nothing will charm you and nothing will bring happiness than him. That is claustrophobia of love. I felt that when I was there in
The day has come and I was so happy. When I saw him it was like gasping air ..with full throttle. I inhaled with my heart full of feeling and love. He claims him-self to be mainly but he is cute. He is cute enough to beat a baby boy. I tried to hug him but he felt uncomfortable and I could understand. I laughed .The moment I was waiting for months and it is already here. I tried to tell everything, every single thing I felt. Every single night and every single lonely dusk I spent. Alas my mouth was sealed. I know I can never express anything, but I feel enriched that I have such feelings for him and that overwhelms me every time. I was so relaxed this is going to be like this forever.
Now he is leaving. Leaving me behind, I know I will be used to the life without him.I can live and I have to. Its like going back to life I lived for 6 months. Every day every night I spent counting. The person in lift knows he will not die still he don’t want to stay there for ever. He just counts floors to reach his destination. I am not sure how this life will be, one thing I m sure office will not be the same . The only thing attracts me to office is now leaving. I am trying hard to bring some changes in my life, hope God will help me and will get some change. That will bring some peace to my life.
I never thought “good Bye” will the hardest thing to say…… After good bye also life goes on……
